butterfly-ryugazaki:

butterfly-ryugazaki:

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ—: _{“Nagisa..” It was hard for Rei to see the usually lively boy like this, almost seemingly broken from the way he was talking. “I hardly think that people think I’m cool, or anything of the sort. They probably see me as a hindrance, rather. Though I may be able to propel myself through the water by doing the butterfly stroke, I’m far from doing it properly.. Don’t be hard on yourself, or let what others say get to you. You’re a pleasant breath of fresh air to have around regardless of what anyone may say to you.”}

Ƹ̵̡Ӝ̵̨̄Ʒ—: _{“Shh..” Rei hushed, his voice low and calm as he continued to rock Nagisa to and fro in his arms. “You don’t have to lie to me.. I know the difference between when someone’s crying over physical pain, and when someone is crying from mental and emotional pain. There’s a distinct line between the both, and I have familiarized myself with that line..”}

_{This was definitely a first— seeing Nagisa’s walls go up with his little lie. He wasn’t usually the type to hold things in. No, he was blunt and straight-forward most of the time, and it was hard to think that something like this pent up under the surface, and finally caused him to crack, break, and shatter.}

_{But what could he do?}

_{Rei sat there and held Nagisa tighter, closer, gently rubbing his thumb over a clothed arm in an attempt to soothe and calm him. Rei’s voice hummed softly as he continued to rock Nagisa slowly, willing him to relax.}

_{“You can tell me what’s on your mind if you need to get whatever is troubling you off your mind..”}

_{How did he know? Then again, Rei was quite a perceptive person and Nagisa wasn’t the best liar. The concept was almost too foreign for him. The warm tone of Rei’s voice coupled with his actions soothed the smaller boy. It was rare to see Rei get this close with someone, and Nagisa almost felt as if it were an honour. Then again he felt guilty. It felt like he duped Rei into doing this because he bolted off, crying. But there are some things that, even after a while, Nagisa can’t even control.}

_{Caving in, he eventually let himself lean towards Rei into his comforting arms. What was on his mind? Troubles, clearly. But whether to tell Rei what they were was a difficult question to answer. They were all based around Nagisa thought was selfishness, and his feelings towards Rei. Maybe he didn’t have to give all the details. In hopes that Rei wouldn’t as more, quiet words escaped his lips.}

_{“I’m… being stupid and selfish a-and… egocentric… All I ever do is think about myself… I-I didn’t even stop to ask how you are feeling.”}

_{Nagisa felt terrible for bringing so much grief down on Rei like this. He always tried to keep it to himself when he was alone. In doing so, he didn’t know that this would be the result of it. All Nagisa wanted was to disappear, and for this confrontation to have never happened.}

_{“I should have never talked to you Rei-chan… I’m such an idiot.”}